i messed up my life. screwed it totally. i juz simply dun haf e mood @ all 2 do ath; fearing i'd do sth wrong again. i dunno how much longer i can put up a strong front. thank heavens.. i have gr8 fwenx who stand by me. bt i dunno how much longer i can stand this. i realli dun. wen im wit my fwenx..im all rite. i dun tink tt much. bt wen im alone..i dunno...it juz comes naturally. and oh no, if i listen sad song...i dunno how much body water i'd lose. no wonder im slimming down. 70% of my body water probably 50% gone. sighx. i dunno la. i hate tt perverted hand of fate. screwin up my life. makin mi fall. crumble. torn into pieces...
well. nvm e hp thing. hp gone 4 a wk. fine. ive got a bloodie piano exam 2 worry abt, a bloodie life, and yuk, bloodie exams comin. haish. i wish i could go e dance. sho fun. bt oh well. all e attention will be on li ern aniwae. and aiyo. so many ppl borrow my clothes.. smiles...eh..oh no...alot of ppl de bdae cmin. haish. gonna be broke again...hmph. debbie ar debbie. still wan 2 buy clothes. i tink //SCRIMP N SAVE// tt motto oso cant be used nehs. haha. our $197 goal. haha. dun wan go zoo la. wa lao....lolx. sep holidaes....i dun care. ask ur darlin go out. i'll pull reenx along too. wahaha. so fun. den go haunted hse i go wit reenx. u n ur dear k? so wen smone grab ur leg, he can kick tt poor person 4 u. hee. =). aiyo. 9.30pm le. gtg liaos. tons 2 do. chinese oral tml. wth. haish. blah blah blah. im feelin sho annoyed n grumpy. i nid coke.
i wish u knew wat im feelin. i wish u knew.. tt i dun tink i can eva let go..tt..i'll alwaes love you.. even though e cards r all laid on e table.. n i dun haf any other choice bt 2 see u turn n leave...away from me.... n no matter how much i cry or how my hart breaks.. it'd stay tt freakin way...juz cuz fate interferred.. if only...
